Happy mothers day

It's mothers day, so happy days to all the mums who read.

Haven't written for a while, what with being spoilt in Sydney and all. I had a great time catching up with all and sundry. Big shout out to Jo, and her "porn filled" pizza parlour (which just cracked me up!)

Heading off to Perth week after next, for Shelley's wedding. Dad is headed our way next Friday, and we are all looking forward to his visit.

For anyone who missed it (hahaha! I think I texted the entire contents of my phone book) we are expecting another beautiful boy come October (the 3rd, for those playing along at home)

While I had my momentary sadness, mourning over the little girl I will never hold, I am trying to put that behind me, and be thankful for the blessing of a brother, who will be able to play rough, smash cars, share clothes, and be a companion for Will in his adult filled world.

We have decided, for lots of reasons, to stop at 2 kids, and I am trying really hard to be at peace with the idea that I'm not going to be a "girl" mum.

Most of my reasons for wanting a girl are selfish, and more about me than them. I am feeling sad about not having anyone to dress up, do their hair, have meaningless chats about gossipy stuff. I am finding it hard to wrap my head around not ever living with anyone who just knows what it is like to be a girl.

Years of the toilet seat being left up, pee being on the floor, and picking up endless "weapons" from the floor stretch before my eyes. No mother of the bride moment (sorry to all the boy mums, but we all know weddings are about the bride more than the groom, and who wants to be thought of as the interfearing mother in law!) No watching my baby have her baby.

And the awful thought that I will have sons who don't remember to call me, until they get a girlfriend/wife, who then does it for them, which just isn't quite the same. (boys reading, take note...do something nice for your mum off your own bat! sign those cards, write those letters, make those calls!!!!!)

But there are also years ahead of that unique brand of "little boy love and affection" I already have one little "body guard" who takes my side in everything, and shortly I will have 2. Years ahead of being the dominant female influence in their lives, and years ahead of "sorry, need some girl time!" which no-one will be able to argue with, because how would they know! ;)

Overall, we are so happy on Friday to see "Smudgey" moving around, little heart beating. The scan lasted nearly one hour, and please God, all looks set for another safe, happy arrival in Spring.